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They called me Bell, they cute as they called me like that. I'm just a little dreamer living in a way of fantasy. The best memory in life is having someone who threat me well. A petite who doesn't even deserve to someone they called special. She's an enemy of love but easily to fall in love. She's a writer of her fantasy's little diary in her pocket of mind


Almost done with First Semester. // 18 October 2013
18.10.13

Hi kowang hi semua hi everything and hi uolls. Motif gambar? TIADA! By the way, I'm having my very first of Final Examination in Politeknik, I'm sure semua Politeknik tgh having their Finals kan, tahu kan rasa macam mana final or exam, rasa dia bagai makan ubi kayu yg pahit. Sedap kan? Haaa mcmtulah rasa dia rasa nk muntah balik. Tgk carry mark rasa macam down sekejap pun ada, alahai knp aku leka sangat? I must study (padahal study week lecturer yg sebok nak buat class and at the end, sesuka hati meng-cancel-kan class) puii! Nasiblah aku tk balik Merlemon tu awal awal, kalau tk mahu keluar air mata berdarah aku nnti. To all of these, aku takut nak hadap final sebenarnya which means aku tk ready lagi, takut repeat paper (jangan main gilo, aku dahlah loading tahap 100/500) I must read all my notes at least 1/2hrs in a day and more hrs! It a must! 

Tapi bila aku dekat rumah ada jadi benda lain, aku nak focus ada je gangguan dia, rasa nak bagi penampa rsekali gus cicah dengan kuah kacang pun ada! Tapi disebabkan sayang punya pasal, aku terima (dalam hati Allah je tahu aku sedih tahap rasa nak bunuh dia) Ye aku tahu kitaorg bukan pape pun tapi please lah sebab aku tak nak kecewa lagi, lagi lagi dan lagilah aku rasa nak avoid diri aku dari terus macamni, (aku bersyukur bila dkt Melaka aku tak ada rasa mcmni) Rasa apa? Rasa macamnilah, rasa yg tiada gambaran menerusi kata kata dan mata kasar. Everyone will rasa benda ni satu jokes but not for me even my mom pun dah said everything yg I thought it was a ridiculous tapi mak kan well mak aku kott, pernah ke dia bergurau macam tu? Pernah ke? Tak pernah, and he is the first person being. Pernah ke mak aku cakap dkt org "Nak jadi menantu? Tggu sampai dia habis belajar Phd bagai bagai tu bolehlah" "Kalau jodoh tak kemana" "Bakal menantu mak" Pernah ke gurauan sebegitu kasar keluar dari mulut mak aku? Tak pernah weh tak pernah, kaulah org pertama wahai kaum Adam! Tolong jangan buat aku tertanya tanya boleh kan? Aku sedih sumpah weh sedih, aku stress, kalau ye pun nak bagi aku stress jangan masa nilah, aku nak final tak tenang tau, nasiblah aku bersyukur bila balik melaka I've never ever think about that.